ゾンビと枕と病気。オマイ～！！

It’s like a warzone here. Dark 24.7, Warm, Bodies strewn about, on the couch, the floor, flickering and hum of the tv down low--distant painful moans coming from rooms next door. Comfort items, blankets, slippers, socks all over the place...cursing, thudding of heavy feet, and...salt water gargling???... o.O

So. Basically everyone is sick in my apartment, and I’ve been trying to keep them away from me like a perfectly healthy person keeps away viral ridden zombies. (minus any chain saw, shotgun, nail gun, flamethrower, battering-ram buses, or any other zombie keeping away tactics people use)...but really though, my roommate and I seem to be the only two healthy people left, and I would LOVE to keep it that way. One of our roommates has mono and strep, the other--stomach aches, the third? just realllly sick...and she stole my pillow -_-. So pretty much my second pillow (practically my only one, since the one I’m using now has been condensed into nothing more than a handful of lumpy feathers), is covered in nasty, virally, coughy, crappy feeling no good sickness. "Don’t worry" she says, "I'm not sleeping directly on it. You should be fine when I give it back." haha yeah, That baby's going directly in the washer, by itself, for a good cleaning. Whenever I get it back that is.

Its funny how sometimes people get you to do things, give things, eat things, or be kind and 'lend things' that no one in their right mind would ever mean to do. I mean, would you willingly give the next carrier of the black lung your pillow, when she obviously has good ones of her own? Nah..but it happens, with those manipulative question/statements that have you lending before you even realize it.

a door opens, you look, startled, and out from the blackness walks a friend you once knew, grayed skin, lopsided hair, pajama pants stuffed into her socks. She emits a visible air of poison, destruction, and sickness coming from her room
"Hey Amanda *cough cough* do you have two pillows.?"
?? Uhh..kinda..Yeah, I guess...why??
"Oh good so I can *cough HACK* have one to prop myself with?"
No!?! Um..well...uhh..I..kinda..
"Goooood, *laughCoughHack* I’ll go grab it. *cough cough* Have it back to you by tomorrow"
Wai...?? AH!
and she escapes, grabbing your pillow and shutting her door before you can even utter a word of resistance..

*three days later*....no pillow, and still spraying my room with Lysol any chance I get. Getting out of bed is already hard enough as it is, I don’t want to add mono or some other crazy viral bad boy to the mix. Living on campus is so bad; too many people are over-stressed and under-rested, leaving them with crap immune systems and spreading sickness like crazy. Last year was bad enough, I ended up in the urgent care twice, and emergency room once in one weekend, all because I came down with....kidney infection, and that’s no joke...I almost had complete kidney failure, woke up with 106 temperature and went to the ER at 2am, shakes, chills, nausea, no fun and dropped classes. The lady at the urgent care said, "Oh, I thought you might have a kidney infection, why didn’t you come in earlier when you felt you were sick with a *I know, embarrassing* urinary tract infection?" Well, OBVsiously lady I didn’t know I had one until I woke up and couldn’t even walk. Needless to say, after that and being sick with a cold every other two weeks, I vowed to stay virtually healthy this year at school, which so far has been going pretty smoothly *knocks on wood*.

But anyways, so other than hiding all day in my room I tried to get out and use the pianos here to practice a new song, Mozart’s piano sonata no.11 in A major. I’m not usually into learning that many classical pieces, I generally opt for the more full-of-feeling pieces that are in shows like Hoshi no Koe, Princess Mononoke, Spirited Away, etc...But, when I was studying last week that piece came up on Pandora and it just sounds so fun I want to learn it. However, the piano rooms have been full all day (and the ones by where I live are really baaaad pianos, but it works when in need). Also, I haven’t taken formal lessons since 8th grade, so needless to say my skills are lacking, but if I find something I really like and I have the tune in my head I can generally figure it out on the piano.



I should make dinner soon, but I’m also out of tofu...so it’ll probably end up being yakisoba tonight with only veggies. I’m already having tofu withdrawals, but I won’t get to the store until after spring break most likely. Oh, An Na just said she might take me to a party later tonight, hmmm, that could make for an interesting story tomorrow, seeing as I haven’t been out since my "friends" left me at a frat party 30 mins off campus the first week of school...but, goodnight all and good luck with everything that’s going on in your lives



"zonbito makurato byouki. OMAI~!" Zombies and pillows and sickness. Oh my!

~Yomi

"Hey. Nice shirt. Can I solve your puzzle?? *wink*" ~pizza guy

(lame attempt to pick me up)

良いスタートを

So, this weekend I stayed in my apartment practically alone. Roommate went to Irvine, Erin went home, An na went to LA, Jen was out doing her party thing. It was kind of nice for once to just chill by myself. I didnt do much but stay and sleep and dream to my heart's desire. I had dreams about weddings, family feuds, wandering through the dark abyss, reality shows at theme parks, dancing on stage--a little bit of everything haha.


Also have been having alot of things on my mind, potienital future, bad stuff from past, etc. I have to remind myself that its not my fault, right? One of those things where theres no real fault to blame, theres bad people and bad stuff happens I guess. Who thought Id be this 'old' and yet have many years beyond my age under my belt?? I keep trying to focus on the now, but when youre alone you find the most inane things to dig up, think about, asses, worry...I want to stop doing that so Im going to try to make conscious decisions to give up worrying about everything and 'go with the flow'.


Oh, and the one girl I really like hanging out with asked me to live with her and a couple other girls I know (and definitely like the best) next year. Im pretty excited and hope everything works out because I really thought Id be one of those people on uloop/craigslist looking for some random person who needed a roommate. Getting an apartment also worries me because the going rate for living in a double is about 550 a month, and that just seems crazy to me. If I was rich and could afford a room of my own its about 1200..whaaat?? I feel this knot in my chest whenever I look at my bank account--I need some money, but I just cant sacrafice my time for a job right now. I know my parents are doing all they can and I just hate being a burden; we are all struggling here.


So far this week looks like its going to be pretty good. All my supplemental classes start up and Ill be full swing in the libraries, getting my stuff done. Oh and I get to go home this weekend : ). Ill land around 8.30 on Friday and leave at 7.55 on Tuesday morning. My first official non Thanksgiving/Xmas/Spring Break trip home.

To a good start

~A.Sky