あたまがいたい！

Boy has it been a long day. I never went to bed last night. By the time I was really ready to, it was already 6am. I knew if I wanted to not sleep through my midterm Id have to stay up, so I hopped in the shower for a nice revitalization and got dressed for the day.

I left my apt around 10 after making breakfast and cleaning a bit, and took my bike uphill across campus for a little over a mile. I was so tired from the lack of sleep it was embarrassing. I then picked up my ochem midterm, and didn’t do as well as I felt, leading me to not want to cram anymore for my computer midterm. I kinda just sat out on top of one of the buildings, trying to soak up some uv rays. Apparently sunlight is supposed to make you happier, fight depression, and the like. When I was sitting up there I saw tour groups walking around campus. It really was such a nice day to check out the school; sunny and semi-cool. It made me think back to when I was the person in the tour group, and then I thought of everything I have done since then, making me wish I could go back and change a lot of things. That really wasn’t what I wanted to be thinking about, regrets and the like never are fun and don’t make you feel good. I saw parents with their kids and I really missed my family at home. I wish I could talk to them about how I feel right now at school; but what with everything going on anymore it just never feels like the time or that it’s appropriate, or that they either would over react or not care--I’d rather just not.

So sitting on top of the building I remembered that I was near where I lived the previous year, where they have piano rooms that require a key, making them waay better quality then the ones close to my apartment. I felt the urge to screw thinking about school, and just go play some piano. I go and get a key, and walk into my small dark room with just a piano. I sit down and everything I played just sucked. I wasn’t in any mood to be good, my fingers wouldn’t move right. I didn’t have the feeling. So then I start just making gibberish, playing all the things im feeling--sadness, loneliness, exclusion, exertion. It came out to be a very lovely tune; very me, very now. I kept the basic melody and tried to perfect it with what I was feeling and the music in my head, getting it right on the keys. Over and over, so as not to forget. And then I remember, I have my camera. I pull it out and recorded the basic three part melody I could get in in the time. It’s not much, but it’s the beginning. I’m planning on perfecting this song. It would be my real 'first' composition. I have some little ditties and the like that my mom loves, her favorite, "flowers and lace". I swear I made that one when I was like 11, but she always insists, "Play it Manda. The flowers one-" And she'll start dancing, singing "Flowers, flowers, flowers and lace. What I will wear on my wed-ding day. Flowers, flowers, flowers and lace. Oh what a glo-ri-ous daay. More Manda! Mooore" hmm...

But anyways after an hour on the piano (which seemed like a mere 15 mins), I left and walked over to where my midterm would be. I sat outside, called my parents, talked about how my dad needs to "see some a's" and how I’ll be paying for tuition. It wasn’t really a fun conversation, but it’s still my parents and they wished me luck on my midterm. Walking into the classroom I sat down, waiting for the test. Not 45 mins later I turn it back in, not wanting to beat myself up about the ones I was iffy on . It was relatively easy-ish, but he subtracts points for answers that are wrong. So if you said T when its F is -1pt instead of just 0--it really takes your grade down fast. You have to be sure about your answers. I leave and call my dad reassuring him I did decent. Once I get to the bottom of the hill I realize that I had ridden my bike to class. I turn around, walk back up the hill to get my bike and ride it back home.

I found someone's id on the ground today too. I looked him up and emailed him that I found it. He seemed really happy and said he would pick it up later. "Thanks so much" (He says as I pass him his card). That felt good.

Now I’m really tired and I still have genetics hw that I haven’t looked at. She’s so tricky too. Maybe I’ll nap and wake up later tonight. Until tomorrow,



I didnt like my picture, but my eyes were so green (on building). The other is the morning fog

“Atama ga itai!” My head hurts!

~Yomi

"Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained during the struggle against overwhelming odds" --Orison Swett Mard

ねむすぎる

Im really tired today. Didnt feel like getting up for class, but I had too. On a good note I sent off the netbook! Sold it on ebay lastnight, didnt get all my money back of course because of their fees and such, but Im just happy to have some money in the bank.

I want to go back to bed; I dont feel too hott...but, I need to study for my computer programming midterm. I think I might just retake this class next quarter, but it still would be in my benefit to still take the midterms/final. My body aches.

My picture is from this morning when I woke up, cute look. And part of an old program I wrote.



"Nemusugiru" Too tired..

~Yomi

"There is a great deal of difference between an eager man who wants to read a book and the tired man who wants a book to read."
Gilbert K. Chesterton

勉強勉強

I kinda hate facebook. It makes you feel like a stalker sometimes haha. Oh well though. This weekend a friend came to visit me at school. Things were fun, I havent really been around campus this much in a long time so it was good to remember the cool stuff thats around me. I got locked outside this morning for like 20 mins in a pouring monsoon though, no fun, hopefully I dont get sick. And I hope my bike doesnt rust. I still need to pick up laundry....

Im in the library again attempting to get some work done. I missed class this morning because I felt like I deserved to lay in bed since I was frozen solid by the water. I had to hang all my clothes up in the bathroom to try and theyre still wet -_-.

This week I have to get alot done everyday because my little cuz (not so little anymore) is coming down to visit me and the campus. Think she might want to come here in a year. I just hope I can find something cool to do with her so she has a good time. Being hostess is hard sometimes. Also, I dont know how to make any food anymore other than Japanese food. Ive eaten onigiri with ume boshi, pan fried onigiri, udon, ramen, dumplings, rice, yaki soba and the like for the past two weeks...I guess I have some itallian stuff up my sleeve from Italy but that stuff is no fun to make and is pretty expensive. The cousin doesnt eat 'fast food' or carbonated drinks either so shes pretty hard to please...hmmm...

But yeah, I should get back to my work, midterms and programs every week now..


Study Study!!

~A.Sky